Entry Level Living

In an earlier post I talked about how my job doesn’t give me adequate opportunities to develop myself as a leader. My organization lacks structure and there is no motivation or inspiration resulting in me being less enthusiastic to be there.

Recently, I came across this great piece by Ryan Paugh over at Employee Evolution. He states:

It was only a year ago when I first stepped into the corporate world. Like any optimistic twentysomething, I walked into my first day and gave my new responsibilities undivided focus and attention, trying to learn the ropes and taking every chance to prove myself.

As the weeks went by, my frustrations grew. I became not such a go-getter. I just got through the days. I came to the only conclusion I could–my job sucked.

But all of my friends were complaining about their jobs, too. It was definitely the job–not just me. So I started searching online for better career options, while plugging away from 9 to 5 every day.

Right before I gave up on finding another job, in came the offer to start Brazen Careerist. After considering my options – either stay at a job I hated or try something new – I decided to take a leap. It’s been a rollercoaster ride that’s taught me the most valuable lesson of all: I never really hated my corporate job. Instead, I now know that I just hated the transition I was making into the real world.

Is it my job or is it simply where I am in life? I just graduated from college and make no money. I’m not liking Philadelphia and am trying to be there for my family who is going through financial turmoil (like most of the country). I know it sounds like I’m whining but when I take a step back I realize that maybe I am putting too much into my job.

The reality is that I am living life. I no longer have my dean to run to when I’m too stressed to get my work in on time (I miss deadlines, I get in major trouble); I don’t have my best friends living next door to make midnight runs to wawa when we’re craving a snack after hours of studying (we no longer live close to each other and have to be up early for work in the morning); I can’t just send an email to my boss telling her I can’t come in to work that day because I am not feeling well (those count as sick days!). Financial hard times aren’t washed away with an additional loan (I have my credit score to worry about); I can’t hide behind a paper when my family calls (time to talk).

I still hold that my organization needs some revamping. However, I am also benefiting from assessing non-work related issues that are affecting my view of my job and making some negotiations about the role of my job in my life.

1. My job doesn’t need to be end-all-be-all place of my development as a leader. In fact, it shouldn’t be—especially since this is my first job. I’m using it mainly as a space to feel out where I want to go professionally. For example, if it weren’t for this job I wouldn’t have realized that I love curriculum development and organizational development and plan on pursuing these fields. However, I need not wait for a development position to acquire key skills for these fields. That’s why I am enrolled in a non-profit leadership training program and am pursuing a certificate in fundraising while helping my alma mater implement a great social justice program.

2. My job shouldn’t be the end-all-be-all of my life. This is my first job! How can I not eat, sleep, and drink the office? I need to make a good impression! Well, for one: work smart, not hard. And second, boundaries are key to a healthy job life (especially those of us in nonprofit work). Work shouldn’t consume you, regardless of your position on the corporate ladder. If there is anything that I learned about college that I can apply here is that my academic life seemed more manageable and less overwhelming when I had an active and supportive social life outside of school. Yes. I mean hanging with folks who weren’t in college. Now I hang out with people who have lives beyond what their job dictates. I can better see what else is out there aside from work.

3. Company matters: the company you keep makes a huge difference in how you handle that first job. I’m a huge fan of having a “Bitch Buddy”: that person you can rant and vent to about how awful the world is. However, this shouldn’t be the only person in your life that you go to talk about your problems. It helps to have positive people in your life who can show you the good in a situation and who teach you the value of letting the chaos of life roll off your back. When it comes to work, I was only talking to people who hated their jobs. Now I see how silly that was.

My main complaint about my internship is that I don’t have much to do. Seriously—it has gotten to the point where I’ve looked at so much YouTube, Myspace, and Facebook that I turn off my computer and prefer to sit in front of a dark screen.

When I talk to my friends about this, many tell me to take the lead. It’s suggested that since there obviously isn’t anything to do I should make my own projects in order to make myself shine.

In general, I go above and beyond my job description with regard to my current position. Because there is so much free time and flexibility, I am able to cultivate and manage the program in a way that stretches me. I am developing a nice portfolio of lesson plans, implementing various events and opportunities for my students and their parents, and am establishing wonderful partnerships.

However, that’s where it ends. When it comes to leadership with in an organization, it isn’t about starting things for the sake of starting things; it’s about developing key leadership skills that will flourish and result in me actually learning something. There is a difference between challenges that arise in any organization and red-flags that indicate trying to do something new in your company is simply not worth it.

1. Your co-workers don’t inspire you—personally or professionally. Not only is there a great deal of animosity and distrust at my organization, but also people aren’t invested in the organization’s mission. There is a lot of gossiping and laziness that makes it difficult for the organization to run efficiently let alone starting a new project.

2. The organization doesn’t function well internally. We have cut back programs and laid people off because we are running out of money. The board and upper management are not transparent and have very different views of what the organization’s mission is and how it should be fulfilled. Anything that I would want to try will most likely not be supported when, realistically, support is needed.

3. You just don’t want to. While it would be easy to do what my supervisor is supposed to be doing, why should I? I have no desire to obtain his position and any accomplishments I make will be in his name.

It comes down to the environment. I am realistic about the fact that I thrive in places that have structure and the people are not only invested in the organization but are also supportive of each other. In the mean time, I’ll excel at what I do, focus on the my non-work related accomplishments and interests, and wait until it is time to move on.

Update: Feeling like this place is not ideal for cultivating me as a leader is also a sign that maybe I should quit. Go figure.

One of the biggest mistakes that I notice many people entering nonprofits make (myself included) is assuming that since nonprofits are in the business of saving people, being critical is difficult or even unfair.

Nonprofits have the unique position of attracting people with a passion to do good in the world; to leave the places they inhabit a little bit better than they found them. Therefore it is not uncommon to come across mission statements that read like holy texts: they are rescuing, preserving, saving, increasing, controlling, and maintaining something in virtually every aspect of human life. Such breadth is refreshing to those of us who constantly have to remind people that nonprofits serve a greater role in this country than just serving up bread at the local soup kitchen (although such an act is incredibly important). At the same time, the grandeur tasks make us more likely to ignore one critical fact: nonprofits are businesses.

When I first visited the place where I currently work I was blown away by its mission: revolutionizing communities through art. Taking abandoned buildings and turning them into parks while offering innovative art classes to disadvantaged young people. Everyone in the building looked so happy and engaged that I couldn’t wait to start. And I also couldn’t come up with a single important question to ask.

I was blinded by what I call the “nonprofit mystique”: the glamour of saving lives and social justice. I was so caught up its super shiny mission that questions about organizational structure, professional development, and day-to-day responsibilities of the job went unasked.

As a result I find myself frustrated and disappointed. I have learned that it is OK to be critical and to assess the organization on more than just its kind words. While you should be invested in the organization’s mission, you should also seek fair compensation. You should realize that there are other organizations that fulfill a similar mission in a better fashion. You should understand that money, time, structure, and law are just as important to nonprofits as they are to for-profits: they just matter differently.

In other words, you’ll feel less guilty about being critical and more comfortable accepting the fact that you cannot do all of the good work that you have the potential to do if the place where you are working is not appropriate for you or just not working well at all.

The internship program that I am in comes to an end in a little over three months. Right now I am getting emails from students at my alma mater to share my experiences working in the non profit sector. To better categorize what I have learned thus far I’m breaking down my experiences into two parts: *survival* tips (to keep you sane) and *success* tips (to make you shine).

All too often nonprofits are treated as secondary less than jobs instead of the actual career paths that they are. Aside from the sheer magnitude of different nonprofit jobs there are different cultures and different issues that the sector faces that can impact your experience. Granted, I’ve only had one year working full time but there a few things I wish I knew before starting here that I think would have made my time a bit more fulfilling.

I’ll be sharing my tips over the next few weeks. There will be some overlap since what keeps you sane will (hopefully) help you become a better employee and get the best out of your experiences. I love tweaking my advice based on discussions and things I learn from the readers so feel free to share!